Friday, 1 June 2018

I've Left AGAIN? Where Am I Going?

You’ve done what now? You’ve left? Where are you going? Well, let’s just say this was a very easy decision on my end. Since completing my six-month work placement in the year of 2017 as part of my University degree, I knew as soon as it finished that this wasn’t the end of my journey stateside. 

Looking back on where I was in my life before I arrived in the states last year is crazy, I was a complete home-bird. I lived at home all my life, I was lucky enough to not have to pay the extra expenses associated with living away from home. While this was a huge bonus, it also meant that I never got to experience that feeling of living away from your family and doing it all on your own. This definitely made me feel like I was leaving my safety net at home and going out to experience something I never had to previously. 

I was scared, anxious and worried about the unknown, of not being able to settle in easily. That I would just want to go back to my safety net I had at home. It’s true that I am a creature of habit, I like consistency and I have the mentality that with consistency comes less worry and less ‘turbulence’. But it is safe to say that as soon as I arrived in Boston, surrounded by the people and the new way of life, I truly found myself. I felt as though back home I was too hidden in my life as a university student and the stress of exams.

Last year I got to experience things I never got to experience at home, I got exposed to a new way of life. I created a new sense of ownership over the person I was becoming, and that person is someone who looks to experience every little thing she could, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem to other people. I believe that everything you experience and every person that comes into your life is for a reason, and the impact they have on you is important. 

Now, it wasn’t easy, but nothing worth having in life ever is. Wheres the fun in that? When things become easy, they become less exciting and more tedious to us. 

I am delighted to say that I am lucky enough to have secured myself the opportunity to work alongside an amazing team of individuals in a company I could have only dreamed of working for.

I spent hours upon hours researching and contacting numerous individuals within different companies asking for the chance to apply for the internships they were advertising for recent US graduates. I am positive I sent over 100 emails and LinkedIn messages to employees asking for a moment of their time to describe myself, my educational background and what I was looking for in an internship. You could definitely describe it as an ‘elevator pitch’ moment. 

With more and more emails come more and more rejection emails with the lines ‘we have chosen to pursue other candidates’. It definitely doesn’t become easier, the most recent rejection email hurts just as bad as the first, but I wasn’t going to let that stop me. With each rejection email comes a new opportunity to send an email to a new company or new LinkedIn connection. When you have a passion for something, or a true desire to see something through to the end, nothing will get in your way. And any obstacle or barrier that does act as a challenge, only makes you want it more.

I knew I had something to give, something to show and something to prove. Not only to the people I would be lucky enough to work for but to myself. I had spent countless of hours for the past 24 weeks researching articles and studying that at the end of it all, you want to make those around you proud. 

This is the start of it all, the beginning of a whole new chapter. In my words, this new chapter will have the same author, the same main character but with different tales to tell and stories to be told. I am where I need to be, with the people I want to be with and I am ready to create stories and memories to cherish forever.

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